Thanks for the words of wisdom 25. I understand and appreciate it. The first and last thing I ask for each day is the gift of patience and the strength to do that which I know to be correct – even if it hurts like hell. I’m still practicing this skill, and have a ways to go.
I’ve not been on in a couple of days because of work stuff. I had to let a couple of folks go at work yesterday and the first part of the week and that was just the worst thing I’ve had to do at a professional level. I’d worked with both of these ladies for 11 years and considered them both to be friends. I’m the only manager left in my office now, so it’s even more important for me to GAL.
On that front, I do have two close friends from Jr. High / High school days I stay close to. My closest friend on the face of the planet comes over a couple times a week and we watch stupid movies and TV shows and make fun of them…just like high school 20 years ago. There’s another friend from school that has two kids and went through D two years ago I speak with often. I may go to her place tonight so the kids can play. As far as my family members (mom, dad etc…) they don’t exist basically – so they are not a part of my GAL.
I’m pleased with the progress that I’ve seen within myself though. I miss her horribly but I’m accepting the pain for what it is…a necessary part of life. It doesn’t make it hurt any less but I feel stronger and more proud of myself for not buckling under the strain of it and doing something demeaning such as getting wasted or calling my W and making things worse.
I got a huge lift today from a scripture that I’m sure many have referenced while in similar sitches…
Philippians 4: 6-7
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
For today at least, my heart had been well guarded.
There’s another friend from school that has two kids and went through D two years ago I speak with often. I may go to her place tonight so the kids can play. As far as my family members (mom, dad etc…) they don’t exist basically – so they are not a part of my GAL.