I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

[beepee]

thanks Drew, i will make sure to keep saying that to myself.

repeat as needed:

it really has nothing to do with me
it really has nothing to do with me
it really has nothing to do with me

i will work on trying to detach and let him push me away. i can't say that it doesnt bother me because it does, but i hope within time, the urge will no longer be there to snoop and that he will soon stop pushing. im a nice person, i love him, im not going to hurt him, far from it, i just wish he knew that. i wish he wasnt so afraid of me right now. i wish he didnt think i ruined his life. thats a huge accusation to make to someone who you've been with for only 4 years..