I also it appears that this just isn't going to make sense, since it doesn't make sense to Her either.
There's your answer. So what's your solution?
You can handle it.
Cheers
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.