At least I'm not alone in my frustration and confusion! Part of my personality is having to know the answer. It doesn't matter what it is. It's what makes me who I am. Part of it too is that I think that if I can figure it out, then I can do something about the problem. It is hard to let go of my need to know. I have to or else I'm going to make myself crazy. I also it appears that this just isn't going to make sense, since it doesn't make sense to Her either.