I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

[beepee]

AGH! what is wrong with me!
i was having such a good day!!

I can't stop myself from checking his facebook page. Even though he un-friended me, i can still search for him and see his pic and friends and he changed his picture and he just looks so happy and is adding more and more friends and it just gets me so sad that he wants to move on and be happy without me.

I'm really glad that he's happy, it just makes me sad that I can't be a part of it and that he doesn't want me to be a part of it. I can't let this get to me, I just cant, I was doing really well and I have to keep it going. I just have to.

But I miss him so much. This totally sucks. I just can't get over how it was so easy for him to cut me out of his life, just like that. I never understood how people could do that. I'm feeling really anxious now. I know, I'm doing this to myself and I'm trying not to. I've cut down on that behavior, I still do it but i've cut down nonetheless. I just want to find him and shake him and beg him to bring the old H back, or the H who used to love and care for me. He wouldn't even bat an eyelash now if anything bad happened to me. I could dissapear off the face of the earth and he wouldn't care. That's what it feels like now.
sigh..just venting..