Thanks. It is just that I am really taking action now, doing things that perhaps I should have done long ago and now is when I need the most support.
I value 25's opinion and experience and she has some knowledge relative to my locale and I was hoping to follow up on our convo regarding connecting in the alt. But, when the time is right. No pressure 25. I'm feeling a bit pathetic here...
I am doing better. Caught S6's gaze this morning on the way to camp (lately eye contact has been nearly impossible). I told him basically that I learned something about him yesterday, that he is really able to have his feelings and move forward and that I can be here for him through whatever feelings he's having...he gave me the cutest puppy eyes and said "I know mommy. I love you." And it was the sweetest, most heart felt expression that has come from him in so long. Precious moment and I'm grateful for it.