I was away from the boards motst of yesterday, and I missed your post.
Part of it breaks my heart:
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Lots came out, particularly (after hours of berating me and screaming) that he misses me when he is with daddy, pause...and he misses daddy when he is with me and he doesn't miss anyone when we are all together.
And part of it props me back up:
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I know that S6 needs to know that I am here and I can "handle it."
You are hurting, I know, but you haven't lost sight of what is the top priority - your son. Like you said, you have to be strong for him. Be strong, but feel what you need to (away from S) and get it out. It is a process.
I am glad you are going to see a L (I am one, so no mean jokes). I know it is not what you want to do, but it is what you NEED to do. Your H is being incredibly selfish right now, and you cannot rely on him to do anything one would consider to be the "right" thing.
Hang in there and take it one day at a time for now. It will not be easy, but it WILL get easier.
