K4D Rising #4

[mulesqb]

That is a problem. I keep thinking she used to have faith and believe so at some point it has to come back to her right? I keep thinking that. So far it doesn't appear from the outside that it is. I think, how can you just throw away everything you believe in with your faith? How can you say it doesn't matter?

Don't think for her. Maybe she is thinking that way and struggling. Maybe she is reaching to her faith in a different way - who knows?? All you know is that somehow you have been dealt these cards and you have to play with them.

I love her dearly and I want us to be back together and I want to believe that she wants to do what is best for our family and faith. I want to believe it.

You can believe it. But for right now - that's not what she wants. You are focusing too much on her. Detach bro. You really need to detach. Read my threads - was right where you are. You have to start focusing on things you can control. Have you made yourself a list of things you would like to do?? I started golfing again - I started hanging with friends, becuase that was something I gave up during our M. I started entertaining at my house and I reconnected myself and my kids with both sides of the family - another thing lost during the last few years of our M. Guess what, my calendar is filled.

The more I look back, the more I realize she was slipping further and further away from her faith and our M and I just didn't pay attention. I should have. The fool I was. I could have prevented most if not all of this.

Not your issue - that is hers. She needs to work that out.

In the mean time, it looks like I have a poker night with friends scheduled for August 22nd. That should be a lot of fun. I always enjoy it with friends.

Bro - that is almost a month away. Surely ( I know don't call me shirley), you can get moving on GALing before then. You have a nice plan for this weekend. What do you do during the week?? Can you get into a routine of stuff for Kevin. I'm up to my ears in coaching and i love it. What can you do that is consistent and fun and fulfilling?? Something healthy and invigorating.

Make a list. Get busy living.

Mules