WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

PMA

I wasn't upset for me but more of how upset my boys were. Especially since the were both so excited about their day and wanted to tell my wife

I am starting the new job on Mon. I already told my boys of how they will be with mommy Sun nite till I see them on Thurs evening. They were both a little humming, as was I, but they seem to understand. My 7 year old said he was said but was also glad I has found a job

I am concerned how my wife didn't return my boys' call. I don't understand how she says it's important for the boys to feel that they can talk to either parent any time. Yet she doesn't answer nor return their call. I don't talk on the phone with her when the boys call her. I do see how hurt/disappointed they are when she doesn't answer nor call back by the time they to I bed. I even let them stay up 30 minutes past their bed time in case she calls. But she usually doesn't.

I pretty much stopped asking the boys if they want to call and will call if they ask.

That's why it's pretty crappy

I am trying to move forward with my life with my new job and my closer relationship I have with my boys, friends and family.

I still get upset with/about my wife but don't let it drag me down constantly. It hits me for a few minutes here and there but I'm generally ok

Thanks for caring enough to keep pushing me in the right direction