So maybe one of you will just have to do something silly to break the ice and make the tension go away.

As for me and my flirt guy, nothing much has happened. I think I told you I saw him in april. I was wanting to get rid of relationships that were weighing me down and I knew that there was something I needed to clear up with him. We talked for an hour(he was working, he winked at me twice and gave me a hug and tight squeeze. Took that as good but didn't really know why. We have e-mailed a bit but then I thought maybe if I backed off a bit he would maybe move towards me some.

That didn't appear to happen. Anway, several years ago when I was trying to get his attention, I tossed pennies at him. I have mentioned it in a few conversations over the past year. So a couple of weeks ago I sent him a bottle full of pennies with a note. The note said, "I have been trying really hard to not think about you...apparently I haven't succeeded. Hope this at least makes you smile." He sent me an e-mail thanking me and say yes it made him smile but was hard to explain to girl friend.

A bit crushing but I try to look at the positives: He is ready to date again, he opened it in front of her without having a clue what it was, so I don't think they are serious, perhaps just a date and the last came to me a few days ago..whenever he sees it, he will think of me and hopefully make him happy. He is such a Libra. I know that he doesn't see me as a fling but someone that if he got involved with, it would be something. That will take a commiment of sorts, I just don't think he is there yet. Running 4 or 5 papers takes alot and he still has his 2 kids and their activities(they are both really into sports) to consider.

I am still hopeful maybe when I shouldn't be. Everytime I try to push thoughts of him away, they come back with a vengenance. I just know I am supposed to be with him at some point. I just don't know how to explain how I know.

Sorry for the long post, but you did ask! smile any thoughts would be appreciated.

kat

Me-53(and learning!)
S24, S21, D18, D17
Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory