K4D Rising #4

[mulesqb]

K - you know what - you're reacting normally to the situation. It hurts bro, it hurts a lot. Back slides are normal. At least I think they are. I'm 8 months ahead of you and 3 weeks from being divorced and I still have them. Had one the other day. What i try to do is figure out what causes them for me. For me it's always the same thing. A memory. A memory of a thing we did, a place we were, or the person she used to be. Sometimes my backslide can last two or three days. How can that not be normal. What usually brings me back is her erratic behavior that proves she is no longer that person. Whether she is again someday is something I can't control, so I won't try.

I think it's great how you are reaching to your faith. But one thing, it sounds like you are expecting her to also. She's not going to. That gets back to the no expectations. Coach and I had many long cell phone conversations about that!

My W ran the CCD program at our parish, was a Eucharistic minister and was personally responsible for getting my boys and me into our religion. On the same day she gave that all up. And hasn't been to Church since. That was 15 months ago.

Anyway - just here for you bro. Stop beating yourself up and get busy living.

Strength and Honor.

Mules