Hi Lost;

I'm in the same boat as you. I need support as well so if you ever want someone to cheer you on, come to my thread, I WANT MY MONKEY AND SHEEP BACK and ill stop by here often to see how you're doing.

I'm having a hard time as well, just like you.
No word from my H in awhile, still doesnt want to see or speak with me at all.

a word of advice, there's no point in trying to understand why he left, whether its because of depression, MLC or lack of anymore love towards you. its an unknown at the moment and theres no point in you dwelling on the unknown, it'll make you go mad. trust me, its doing it to me. i dont know what my H is thinking, whether he still loves me or not. i'd like to think that since he actually replies to my emails, that he still has some love left in him for me.

just like you, i feel like my H family and mainly friends are telling him to leave me and to run as far as possible away from me because they never liked me to begin with. and if thats happening to your H, you have to trust that the man you love will make the right decision for himself. he's a big boy, i am sure he can make those decisions himself even though it may take him a very long time to come to his senses.

you just have to wait it our hun, i'm going through so much pain as you are, we're all here for you smile i want you to get better, you deserve to be happy and give as much as possible to your children, they need you so much right now. and make sure to treat yourself too.

have you done anything positive for yourself? any goals?
have you treated yourself to anything?

i'm treating myself to a trip marthas vineyard tomorrow with some friends. i really dont want to go because i want to sit here and cry but i know its not good for me so theyre forcing me to go.

have you been hanging out with friends? do you have people you can talk to? a counselor?

we're in the same boat but hang in there, its gonna be a tough ride but i know you'll make it!


Me: 25 years young
H: 37
No Kids
M: almost 3 years (anniv coming up Sept 25th)
Together: 4years
Bomb: June 12th, 2009

**LOVE WILL FIND A WAY FOR TWO FOOLS IN THE RAIN**