K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

I dropped off my kids this morning at the rec center and made it to work. Another weekend without my W. I have good friends to be with tonight and tomorrow night and that is a blessing.

Journaling:

I am so tired of this crap with my W pretending like she is single. Whatever stuff happened in the M doesn't give her the right to be with other men and break up our family. What part of for better or FOR WORSE to people not get these days? And if you try and say anything about it, oh, you are judgemental or not living in reality or whatever other crap they can throw at you. Vows mean nothing. A covenant means nothing.

Well it DOES mean something. Its not something fake you can just toss aside when you find something delicious out there. Do people really think they are released from their lifetime vow and covenant made with God? Based on what? Where? People just say I can do what I want because I have free will. Thats true. But if you think you are released from a covenant, think again. Its still there whether or not you choose to honor it. You are not released from it. None of us are. For better OR FOR WORSE, TIL DEATH DO YOU PART. Not til that sexy person over there likes me.

You know, I would not leave my W if she became disfigured or something else. But oh, I made to many mistakes so she has decided there is much more delicious men out there.

Frusturated and venting this morning. Time continues to go by and I see no change in W. How long before any kind of spiritual awakening occurs? Some realization of what a vow and covenant really means? Some thought about "Oh, I do have a family and kids that need both parents to be united and loving"? "Oh you mean that was for life? I didn't realize for life meant for life".

Kevin