(((Cas))) Thanks, I'm planning on having so much fun and trying to move on from the past 19 months.
(((Bonny))) Thanks for dropping by. There is actually some sunshine coming through my office window as I eat my lunch The rain certainly didn't help my mood. I hope you have a lovely time at the coast. I love going to the seaside.
I do think my negativity was down to it being my h's birthday. I hate feeling left out of his life and I guess things like that remind me that I am. Thank you for your encouragement though, it means a lot .
I truly understand your feelings. The fact that my heart won't seem to let go is a point of constant wrangling within myself. It is only when I let that go and accept that I feel that way at the moment and it is ok, that I get peace.
My hearts desire is still my husband, so I would like us to at least attempt a shot at reconcilliation. A chance is all I want. Things move slower than I would like but we are making slow and steady progress. At least he is speaking to me now! lol! He didn't really for a long time as he felt too much shame and guilt. I am thinking about how to move on from friendship at the moment. I think now we have all our 'business' stuff with money and house out of the way we can start having fun together.
- I plan to get him involved and ask his advice on my work projects. - Always look hot whenever I see him - Be encouraging and suppostive of his new job - try and go on some fun outings that he'd appreciate. Friday night lates at the British Transport Museum. Possibly a prom. - Start to flirt.
My aim is for him to want, and make room in his life, for spending time with me.
The rain certainly didn't help my mood. I hope you have a lovely time at the coast. I love going to the seaside.
