W backed out of going to the fair with us today to go shopping for a new car. Writing here to vent a bit, and not let her know that it is bothering me, but man does that make me sad. Nothing I can do about it, but go and have a good time with my d8..
Also, after talking with my IC yesterday, I realized that when I see my W dressed all sexy now a days, I get really emotional, and my behavior when I am was insulting to my W. Not even saying negative things to her, just my actions and tone of voice when I am sad/hurt/angry were coming through.
So, I manned up this AM, took her aside and apologized for insulting her at times, and told her what emotions I was feeling when I see her like this, and that those come from missing her, missing ML with her, etc. I did this in not a critical, nor needy way, but felt is was the right thing to do for me. I told her she need not reply nor am I looking for a response.
She visibly softened up after I apologized and I got a hug, and as I went to leave, she talked a bit about the new car she wants to buy, and my d8's playing with our dog yesterday, seeming to want to keep me around for a couple of minutes after.
Last edited by iwantittowork; 07/24/0912:02 PM.
M: 41 STBXW: 41 D: 9 Bomb: 4/26/09
On board the D train now..
"Suffering is when we try to change what we cannot."
