Thanks break...I'll need to read this more than once but there is lots to think about in there.
Lies, false accusations...one of the things that hurt the most was our friends who concluded my accusations of abuse were a legal ploy to gain custody. I never responded. Maybe I should have. The days of me covering for H are over.
Day 2, my family is still at the beach (with said friends). H called this morning to 'check on me', I cut it short (cheerfully) since I was at work. It's so nice and calm, just me and the dog, chillin'. Being alone isn't so bad. Peace.