Agh! He's detached completely!

[IWillSaveOurMarr]

Agh. Major legal issues with work right now, and I'm under a huge deadline as well. Fun fun, have to see more attornies. I honestly don't have much "fight" left in me. Thank god for my interest in the new man, Gizmo, because otherwise I'd have nothing postive going for me right now.

Had friend serve H papers this afternoon for our first court date to #1 get him to stop spending $, get me some maintenance $ as well as resume MC and go to a great Marriage Workshop that I think could be transformational to him personally, as well as our marriage. It was hard sitting here waiting to hear it all went as planned, but it did, thank god.

I'm exhausted today, it's hard mustering up the strength to keep going, but somehow I am.

I volunteered at Habitat for Humanity earlier this weeka and while I worked my butt off, it was a fantastic experience and got me out of the house. I plan to work 1 day a week right now since I have the time. It's a great cause, and will look very good on my resume, and it teaches me valuable new skills. Plus, I swear I sweated off 8 lbs of sweat while we prepared two bathroom floors with special sheetrock.

H still not home from work, and it's almost 10 pm. I knew he would be acting oddly because he got served, and that's never fun, but still, I expected him home way before this. Not that anything I think matters anymore. <sigh>

How do you know when you honestly don't have a chance to save your marriage? He's so black and white on decisions that I think once he switched his mind to D, he can't possibly change it!

Got to go.