To be held maybe for the last time was something I wanted to savor.
The only thing I would caution you about here is that you don't "telegraph" to him that it's the "last time". If you get my meaning.
It doesn't sound selfish to take care of yourself. How can you possibly look out for anyone else if you don't?
I can hear the struggle in your words and I wish that I was articulate enough to have some words of my own that would magically make you feel better.
I'd like to tell you it does get easier with time. I'm more than 2 years into this and in some ways it's easier, but I still struggle with other things. I don't have any plans, I ain't goin' nowhere, so I'll just hang out and figure things out. That's the best we can do aside from GAL. Belly dancing anyone??
