Seperated

[LitlHopeAlwys]

Sorry to to hear that your sitch keeps getting worse, as does mine. My prayers are with you.

I'm at a point now where the W won't talk to me, won't read my emails - not even any contact about S3. In her mind she just wants a D and acts like I don't exist, amazing how over a weekend things changed between her saying she is willing to try, and looking up marriage therapy to not speaking to me. Makes me wonder if there is an outside influence guiding her with what to do.

All I have been able to do now is act as if, and focus more on GAL and focus on S3.

I spent the day with S3 today - he was supposed to be with my parents and they dropped him off with me. First thing he said to me was "Am I sleeping here daddy?" Broke my heart. It was so hard to tell him not tonight. Had a great time with him anyway. When Grandma came to get him, he didn't want to go. He cried to stay saying that he didn't want to go with her and see mommy. Brought tears to my eyes. I feel so bad for him, he wants to be with me all the time. He's funny - he tells me he is trying to come back home and live with me, ask hum if its just going to be me and him and he says no mommy too. That he is working on it. I would never imagined a 3 year old be as smart as he is and noticing every little thing that her does.

Had to tell him today that he won't see me for 2 weeks, he asked why - told him I was going away - he said he wanted to come or I can't go. Told him I'll be back before he knows it, and he said he is going to run to vegas to be with me. I have a feeling that the next 2 weeks without seeing him are going to be really hard.