I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

[Kettricken]

He'll do what he's going to do, regardless of what you say about it. I think you're catastrophizing here, and I don't think your physical condition (diarrhea) is helping your mental one at all. From what you report about the metabolization of your meds, it's very possible you're not getting any benefit from them, which may very possibly be skewing your decision-making, emotional status, and general cognition for the worse. My advice is to hold off on doing ANYTHING ... engaging any decision making or conversation with your h (especially), or any kind of confrontation with your family until AFTER you see your prescriber and hear what he or she says about your meds.

Your brain may not be giving you the best intel. right now. Not your fault. Just breathe and try to wait it out, unless you feel yourself *really* spiralling downhill, in which case, call your prescriber immediately.