Well, other than sitting here and reviewing borderline personality treatments, I am okay. My lack of patience is my biggest downfall, and I am so wishing I could find a job already. Breath...Lola breath...but I know something is coming my way. It's just a matter of waiting for it.
STBXH still has not filed paperwork although he swore he would. (Rolling eyes...) I am probably going to end up doing this myself, but since I can't do it for six months, I am not going to worry about THAT right now.
It has been good being back on the east coast though. I spent the weekend in Pennsylvania with some friends, and am headed up to upstate New York for a few days. Thank God the drives are relatively short...
In the meantime, I have spent some time at the memorial park where K is buried. It is peaceful and quiet, and I can think a lot there. I suppose I am obsessing a bit but I feel closer to him, and I miss him. But I am not crying so much anymore either, just hoping my dear brother is at peace.
Of course, I can almost feel him smacking me in the back of the head for some of the decisions I have made. (((sigh))) oh well, live and learn, pick up, get on with it. Soon I will have a nice job, little apartment, and can start over and just be me. I look forward to that...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
