I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

[beepee]

i'm trying really hard to to get down today but i'm feeling particularly LOW right now.

im trying to think positive thoughts.
be happy that i'm alive, be happy that i'm facing the day.

but then i get so sad and miss him.
then i get so angry and want to kill him for being so selfish and not caring at all about how i feel. i know he's going through a lot himself. i understand that and i want nothing more than for him to get better and be happy. i just wish he wanted to be happy with me.

there's something i am really worried about though. his visa expires on Aug 31st which is only a month from now. if i am assuming correctly, he MUST be divorced to me by the time he files his petition to stay in the US. is that correct? if so, either he goes back to ireland or i am going to be divorced in the next few weeks. i dont know. anyone know about this at all?