A bit of journaling today. Excited that I get to see the kids this afternoon. Can't wait to spend time with them. I have noticed that over the past few weeks it has gotten a lot easier to not have the urge to call the W. I guess it is because there are others now that I call for support etc. I guess it is finally me detaching from the situation. What scares me is that I hope it is not me losing her. I hope it is me detaching so that we can soon be in a better place together. I used to think about talking to her all the time and I don't anymore. When I think of calling someone to talk to it is my "support group" of close family or friends that have helped me through this. I looked long and hard last night at the things that have happened over the past month here with the W and feel like the wall is starting to come down. It has taken a long time and will take more time I know, but this waiting game is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. RTQ
Me 34 WAW 34 S 3 D 1 Marr. 7 Tog. 8 Bomb 04/11/2009 Left 04/13/2009
