Has anyone seen my get-up-and-go?

[mishka422]

Dawn, you are keeping up with your yoga, right? I know that helps you to center yourself more.

I understand that depression is an illness and is not something that you can just pull yourself out of. It takes a lot of hard work and, in some cases, drug therapy. I assume you have tried the herbal supplements that are supposed to help (ie - St. John's Wort, SAMe, Kava, 5-HTP).

As far as avoiding RL friends because you don't want to lay your problems on them, who says you have to lay it out there for them? Just talking to your friends about everyday things without bringing up your suicidal depression can help. The conversation will at least take your mind off of the burdens for a little while. I don't EVER share the dark thoughts in my head with any of my friends. Some people may say that I'm being fake and wearing a mask around the people I should trust. I sometimes look at it that way too, but then I realize that the personna I show the world is actually me, it's just covering the pain that no one else needs to hear about. I share my pain with God and with you poor, unfortunate souls here! It's not a matter of trust, it's a matter of not laying my problems at their feet as a burden for them to bear with me. My friends are all 'fixers' and they would very much want to fix something for me that can't just be fixed. So, don't fear talking to your friends, just don't share things with them that you feel could lead to alienation. They just want to talk to you and that alone can uplift your spirits for a time.