R talk - my version doesn't necessarily mean sit down for hours and have a heart to heart. I know that rarely works with my H anymore. I do it in bits and pieces when the timing feels right. It seems he is better at 'releasing' bits and pieces and I do better at recovering from what he discloses. Time is still my friend.
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Uh...R talk?????????? Think about that first...lest you hear what you don't want to hear.......and return to GO (do not collect $200)
after 6 years I am ready to hear and keep proceeding to get this part of my life and M behind me. Even if it means not staying together with H, and he knows that. He also knows that is not what I want. Either way, together or apart, I am in for a lot of tough stuff yet.
I had a brief flashback of rage while meeting with an insurance agent about problems with policies from when H was hurt and the transition from the policies being autopaid for us. It goes back to the darkest period for our M = 2004 - 2006, H has tried but unsuccessfully dealt with it and 3 years later has included me to help. There was a handwritten letter but it wasn't H's writing, although it was his signature. Slight panic disbelief rage when I thought it was ows writing, but then I realized it was the agent. How easy it still is to disbelieve!
What I think I need to concentrate on is the fact that these little things are works in progress and being taken care of and we discuss and address some of our issues. We also had some physical closeness. Yes, baby steps.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
