K4D Rising #4

[MrBond]

Did he offer any advice?

[K4D]

He said maybe someday my faith will bring her back. He said it could be 50 years from now.

BTW,

There was nothing wrong with 25's post. It was just me having to sit back and think about where am I really going in life. What am I really doing? Why do I give up so easily in so many areas?

The post was just really straight to the heart of some matters and it just kind of got to me. Then I found out something about my W that just put me further down. So I went out and excercised for a while. It was a healthy release.

I am looking forward to my audio book getting here. I won't get in trouble listening to it at work. I can listen while I work. As long as our work gets done, they don't much care about much else.

Kevin

[K4D]

I'm sorry, he said someday my faith MIGHT bring her back. He didn't say it will.

Kevin

[The Wifey]

K- Try the AA meetings. Try a new C. Keep the time with the Priest.

Grow, grow and grow some more. You've only scratched the surface so far.

[Tomato]

bro

you are starting to do a good bit of maybe self- realization or actualizing ...it is showing ..keep rolling down that hill

bro

[Tomato]

iow's

you are getting real w/ yourself ..it is beginning to look nice on you ...go go go

[K4D]

Thanks Tomato,

Excercising was great. I need to be doing that every day. Tonight I am going to take my girls with their scooters and excercise again. It just really improves my mental outlook. Of course I was also awake last night because of the energy so I am a bit tired today. But that is ok. It was great to get out and burn some energy and calories.

I'm getting together with FaithfulH Saturday so I am looking forward to that. I was going to watch my girls while her family went out to celebrate her sisters birthday. But I called and told her to get a baby sitter so I could hang with FaithfulH.

I will get them starting Sunday anyways and they know the usual baby sitter very well, so I am not worried about it. Tomorrow night I am going to my divorce support group. I am looking forward to my book getting here. I feel better mentally today.

God has good things in store and I know he gives me blessings that I don't always see or recognize. Things will turn in this M with time. It just seems hopeless right now. But I know it won't be that way forever. Its going to take a lot of endurance and change in me and excercising and walking with God really helps that.

Kevin

[K4D]

Journaling:

Wow, a lot of people are down on their situations today. I can't say as though I haven't been lately either. We all face a great challenge. And it is possibly a long one. How we conduct ourselves will determine our own happiness in the future. I also believe how we conduct ourselves will determine the ultimate outcome for our M's. We all have to keep faith and walk through this dark time remembering who is walking beside us.

Kevin

[K4D]

Journaling:

My W said that had I moved out back in September that things might have been different now. It makes me wonder. When I offered to move out back then, she still would not agree to just a separation and was still going to file for D. I believed her. I wonder if things really would have been different if I had just moved out then and walked away for a while. Well, I am out now and I am leaving her alone. She hasn't filed for D again yet. I just have to get better control of my emotions when I am around her. It's doable. There isn't anything I can't do if I just force my mind to it.

Kevin

[K4D]

I think I am going to skip lunch today and just enjoy a good dinner with my girls and then go to the park. I have to get back down one belt buckle size.

Kevin