Orich, You might not be depressed but your beliefs and thinking will get you there if you are not self-aware. Google "Learned Optimism" by Martin Seligman and read up on how you are thinking. The first thing to do to get out of a hole is stop digging.
FWIW I didn't make any progress with my wife until she moved out and filed D papers. You are just getting started to work on your journey. You can handle it.
Cheers Coach
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
