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[iwantittowork]

Today I am feeling some anxiety about this Friday.

First, last night I got home and W and d8 were not at home, and I was fine with that, no note, etc, but it didn't seem to bother me. Later, she called and said she was out at dinner, and asked me to ask my SS if he still wanted her to bring him home some dinner. I chatted a bit about dinner, and how my D was doing, then W asked if she should bring something home for me to eat as well. I was all set, so said no. (I forgot to thank her though for asking, but too late now.. ) All was well until they got home, and I saw my W was really dressed up sexy. I tried not to say too much, but think I ticked her off when I said wow, look at you! I think she takes that as a negative. I need to stop noticing and commenting on this, but damn it so hard when she looks so darn good... Any ideas on how to handle this when it happens? God, I am so bad at keeping these hurt feelings inside when I see her like that..

Anyways, I am taking my d8 to the fair on Friday, and W is going with us. Unless she decides to back out at the last minute, to which I need to not react to if she does, and allow her to do so without feeling rejected or hurt. However, even if she does go, I need to DB all day while we are out, not pursue while there with her, and try and focus on D's fun and just having fun with that.

After that, d and I are going away for the weekend, and that has me anxious as well. W is staying home, and I don't seem to do well at that, I build all these stories in my mind about what she is doing. I HAVE TO STOP DOING THAT!!!

Detach, detach, DETACH!!!