Thanks guys Well D is a B*tch! I mostly have good days but they last 2 days have been hard
Progress I have made since my last post. I started NC. I have only talked to XH 2 times since that last post I made and both times it was him initiating contact and I kept it short, to the point, no emotion and was the one to end the conversation. Both times about finances
Some good things: After the 'spark plug' incident I decided no more. I sold the truck BY MYSELF and bought my self another car BY MYSELF..didnt call and ask him ONE questions nor did i call to tell him about it like I normally would. Of course he called a week later trying to get all the details acting completely surprised that I handled it all myself. I enjoyed that
I talked to my employer about my situation and they temp. raised my hourly wage..meaning I could afford my own place..so I am happy to announce folks that I am moving into my OWN apartment next weekend!! I also arranged this whole move by myself
NC for me is a very hard thing, the one thing I struggled with when I was DBing. Now its like second nature all of a sudden. My friends and family want to push me to move on so fast! My friend acted shocked the other day when I was just being honest when I said if XH ever came back and wanted to work things out, that I dont know 100% that id have the strength to turn away from him...but I anticipate this feeling to take a while to get over
All I know is I have ALL of my own bills now, we have completely separated everything, and that is very helpful
I am still hopeful, but I am also moving on with my life. Sort of sad tonight, thinking about him alot, but that is normal, right?
