Well, that's it.
Just spoke to W. She is not going to Retro. She has now told her whole family. They are supporting her moving on. She is going to contact a mediator. She wrote me a letter that she is going to send me tomorrow. That's it. She is done. Everytime I had some hope, including when she initially agreed to retro, she only did because she felt bad for me. She never had anything in her heart other than to leave.
Needless to say, I am beyond devastated. I didn't know what to say while she was telling me this stuff, so I just stayed pretty quiet. I really don't know what to do. There was never any hope. She told me she is happy whenever I am not around, and when I am, she is unhappy.
It's really over. 12 years of my life with my beautiful bride are gone behind me. I've lost her.
Fellow DBers, please help me through this.


Me-40
W-41
Together-10
M-8
S-6
S-4
Bomb 5/08
Bomb 10/08
Thought things were better, was wrong.
Still living together
Wife doesn't think she will ever love me again.