let me just add........that I meant, moving ahead........with H. I find myself dreading his phone calls and feeling more upset after he calls. I am having trouble trusting him. In my head I keep thinking "Why should I care what you say? You are untrustworthy."
I feel at a stand still with myself. I don't know what and how I can do better with my resentment!
To give some background. I asked for separation and to try to salvage our marraige. H said he feels that he has to follow thru with the D for himself, but he is open to trying again after a few months and just starting over. He is not having an affair....he is having a mid-life crisis.....I think. But, whatever it is, he wants to be "in charge" of his life.
Point being - he said, this is the only way I can try again...to first go ahead with the divorce. I agreed and told him that I'm not sure how I will feel after the divorce and that much time off.
I am asking for some advice bc I do want to share my life with this man. But, this week, I think I am feeling and I am actively putting up a wall...I feel this insane need to protect myself....How do I get over this resentment that is starting to set in?
