Just venting here, So bear with me... Sometimes I wonder what it is I am fighting for. This woman is not my wife, at least she isn't the same person. When all is said and done, if DB is successful, who will W be? Her old loving self? The giving, loving, self sacrificing woman I fell in love with? Or this cold, indifferent woman I am living with now? Will she thaw? Do I have to fall in love again with a new version of W? Sorry, I just needed to put this out there. I went to meet my sister at a shopping mall for lunch, and all I saw were couples walking hand in hand or sitting together at a booth in the restaurant sharing French fries. I know I am hyper-sensitive to this kind of thing, but it is upsetting. Sometimes I wonder if I should cut my losses and move on. Then I remember my vows and my family. And then I say a prayer for strength and perseverance. I am a happy person by nature, and am trying desperately through DB to be that happy person again. Ok, enough ranting. Thanks for reading.
Me-40 W-41 Together-10 M-8 S-6 S-4 Bomb 5/08 Bomb 10/08 Thought things were better, was wrong. Still living together Wife doesn't think she will ever love me again.
