Got home and H and I got into it. H started the blaming game - accusing me of spying on him (once again asking how I got the info) I did not tell him and focused on his lying and disrepectfulness to me, our M and our family. No, H is not yelling. H then says he was going to take me out to dinner and start focusing on 'us' and I ruined it. I told H I know about how 'far' his affair has gone (suggesting the sexual nature of it). H drove away then comes back.
Again he quizzes me on how I got the info, how he is astounded that I would spy on him and how horrible of a person I am for doing it. I again put the focus back on him, his disrespectfullness, his lying and the affair. I told him that each contact he makes with OW hurts me more and pushes me further away. (IC suggested such) H then tells me he was going to ask me for the name of a counselor for him tonight but now he is not because he does not think the M is going to work.
I know I probably made mistakes here but I need to know what to do RIGHT NOW. I think H is still home, S is outside and I don't know that I can stay in this house with him.
Me: 39 H: 39 S: 15 M: 18 years Bomb: 6/3/09 H moved out: 10/15/09 H moved back:5/30/10
