K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

I am looking up books on audio that have been recommended to me. I also ordered the new testament on CD. My focus seems to last much longer when I listen than when I read.

I am learning that about myself.

25, I am going to get "Blue Like Jazz" on CD and listen to it. Hopefully this will be another good step in the right direction.

I also found "Five Languages Of Love" on CD. And I am getting "Codependent No More" on CD. I can listen to these at work during the day. I'm thinking it is a good start. I didn't find "No More Mr. Nice Guy" on CD. But I am getting some stuff together.

I am looking at different AA meetings also. I need to go to a new comers meeting that starts out with the program from beginning to end.

Actually when I talked to the priest about my M, he completely understood where my W was coming from. He didn't defend the morality aspect of it, but understood the mindset of her. He is quite insightful.

There is also a software program called JAWS for the blind that makes everything on the computer audio that my BIL and his sister use. It is $900, but I am just more of an audio and visual person that a text reader. It could be well worth it for extremely long articles and pages, etc on the computer.

Good stuff. I am still going to my divorce support group and we are meeting again on Friday. I have not quit that one. It is a really good group.

I still get together with FaithfulH now and then and he is truly a blessing to me.

See, I am putting things together. And overall I have been doing better regardless of what some may think. I have stuff going on.

I didn't eat lunch today. I need to lose a few pounds again and get back to 195.

I get my kids tomorrow night. I am hanging out with a friend tonight. We are just going to go to the park and walk around and chat. He has been through 2 divorces. One was his choosing, the 2nd was not.

I still stand for my M. But I am trying to do it in a detaching way.

I do want to make sure that I am not using God as a crutch. I admit that is probably a struggle for me. But I do have faith in him.

VD,

The bible does also say that a man will leave his family and a W will leave hers and the 2 will become one flesh and let no man separate what God has joined. That would include a judge. It is only legal, not spiritual when it comes from a judge.

I continue to stand for my M. But at the same time do for me.

Kevin