a few weeks ago in an email that the H sent to me, he wrote something that really made me think. i dont know whether i agree with it or not.
he said that "love should be simple, our love isnt simple"
Honey, when you first fell in love, it was simple. There weren't any complications. You fell in love just because you did.
There were no right or wrong, no guilt, no depression, no stomach pains, none of the soul-searching.
Now you have a history. Those things are there.
My H said something similar and it took me a while to get it. He wants to see me because he wants to, not because he has to. He wants to ask me out to have fun, spend time together, not to dissect the past. He wants to be with the me that isn't in pain and crying, which makes him feel guilty, which then hurts him, which then makes him feel like I'm an obligation.
Understand?
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
