NC with wife for one week

[GoBison]

Well nothing new has happened with W. It has now been two weeks since she has moved out. The only contact between us has been whether or not she has gotten any mail which was on Sunday through a text message. I expect her to contact me in the next day or so to get some concert tickets from my house. I am sure that it will be a text saying that she is stopping over. When she does stop to get them I do not plan to be around the place.

I am sure that she still thinks of me from time to time. Just not sure how much and wonder how long she will hold onto the negative feelings. In the last two weeks I have been thinking about things and reallized that yeah I was contributed to the problems but she has a lot of work to do to make things work in our M. And I believe that we can make a good M but she has to do her part as well. For a long time it seems that I have been always walking on egg-shells trying to please her and not rock the boat as it seemed like she could up and go at anytime. Well that is not the M that I want to be in. I want to be in a M that I don't have to constantly be worried that W maybe out looking for greener pastures or in one that she isn't completely honest with me. Which has been a problem with her for a long time but being the "Nice Guy" that I am let is slide way too much in fear of upsetting her.

I really don't understand how so many people here can go on for years or months of this stuff. While I am doing my own thing and am happy with what is going on in my life I still think of her constantly and wonder when she is going to snap out of it. At this point I don't think that I am one to just wait on her indefinetly to see what she wants to do with her life and if there is an OM wait for her to choose.

I will continue to keep not initiating any contact at this point. I have also cut off contact with one of our mutual friends as she would ask her what I have been up to trying to get information.

I have also been doing some reading on some of Gucci's posts. While I am still realtively new to this separation and about one month post bomb, I do think that he has some really good points. And will be working in that direction in the next couple of weeks.