New Post for Wifey

[The Wifey]

My cellar is nearly cleaned out! I spent most of the day hauling things out and sorting papers. I had a huge fire and burned most of the unwanted papers. This is the second to last area I need to organize. (The garage will be last.)

I have a yard sale this Friday and Saturday and that is where all my excess stuff is going. Whatever I make is going to be set aside for August. I will use every penny to visit my S in NC and SMW in Virgina.

In the process I found the cards and letters my H and I exchanged while he was in Basic Training and Tech School. I wasn't sure if I should read them, but am actually glad I gave in to the temptation.

I wound up staying up until after 1 in the morning reading them all. I did cry some, but not wracking sobs by any means. Just a few tears for memories. I also smiled and laughed. When I was done I felt even more sure that our R will be restored and we will have a new M.

I am feeling so much stronger every day. Just looking around at my house and how much I've accomplished, my new activities, my faith - I feel grounded and centered.

Strangely enough, I recognize all the good that has come out of this traumatic situation. I've worked through childhood haunts and fears that I carried into the rest of my life. I am sure of myself, of my worth, and standing on my own two feet.

I've met the most wonderful people and expand my definition of family every day. I'm happy, content, and have finally gotten to the point where I can talk rationally to my own self about my feelings. Fears have a basis, and I take the time to figure out what the basis is for each.

The future is extremely bright, no matter what. I am a child of God and certain in His Goodness. I am blessed in so many ways.

Today I will finish the basement. It is supposed to be warm (finally) and it will be so nice to look around when it is complete.

Depending on when I finish, I think I might go lay by the pool or at the beach. A little relaxation, a little sun, and some time to myself. I might even paint my toenails. That will be my reward for finishing this huge project.

I wish I could take you all along.