I just went back through my thread. Jeesh. I'm embarrassed. I've said the same crap since February. Six months. I guess I keep getting little inklings that things might get better...and then they get worse again.. Or maybe I think if I were just tougher or something I could handle it better. I don't know. I WAS handling it better. Feel like I've lost ground.
I realize that March was when I found that the OM, that I wasn't involved with anymore, but that's when I found out he'd been lying to me all along, from the beginning. That he'd tricked me, that it was all fake. So, I have to admit that had caused me a lot of negative emotion to cope with all over again. On top of the daily junk.
Well. This is pathetic. My sitch hasn't changed, and I can't seem to make it any better, and I don't have the resources to do anything else either.
