K4D Rising #4

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25,

I didn't say I was being religiously persecuted. That thought didn't cross my mind. I knew I was going to get ripped into for not continuing with the AA or C. I'm not a victim either. I made a concious choice on my own. And I knew that once I brought it up, I was going to hear about it. That doesn't mean I am a victim. It just means I knew what was coming.

I can very much understand how uncomfortable you felt being pregnant and a L in that type of situation with excons. I had quite a few of those in my meeting.

I talked to the priest some about my M, but that is not the majority of it. Infact, it is very little of our conversations. He is more interested in me becoming catholic and making sure my soul is good than anything. He just also happens to have great insight to other things being obviously who he is and what he does.

If my W takes my kids to church. Great. At least they are learning about God. Where ever she takes them is fine with me. I would prefer them to go somewhere as opposed to nowhere. If she wants to take them back to the church we used to go to, then great. If she wants to take them somewhere else, then great also.

I'm not looking to a priest to reunite me with my W. I am looking to God for that. I had huge concerns and still do about being at the church knowing it is a huge brick between us. But I just feel like that is where I should be.

And no, neither me nor my W finished college. We just worked our way up in the real world.

Elizabeth Edwards resonated with me in that she is right. The more time you spend dwelling on what could have been or not moving on with life, the more time you waste away your life. One day you will look back and regret it if you never moved on and started enjoying your life while you had it.

Antlers,

I am truly impressed that you figured that out about the restaurant. What are the odds? Do you live around here?

I had a great time tonight there. It was with a group of friends from the divorce support group I have been going to and still am going to. We are going to get together one night and I am going to teach them poker and we are planning a bowling night and some other stuff. They asked me to give them my schedule so they could try and plan things around it. I'm looking forward to it. The group itself is meeting again this Friday and I am signed up to be there again. I have gone to a few of the get togethers with this group and the people are really great.

Stuck,

I just know certain things I am going to get a 2x4 for after they happen.

PMA,

I am working on being better and I do try to make sure I am kind in every interaction I have with my W. Once in a while I get frusturated when she harps on something. But overall I am very kind to her.

Esox,

I am trying to think about the ways I was different then versus later years and now. I do need to get my swagger back.

Well, its been a good night. I am ready to turn in. I have more praying to do and I obviously need to ask for forgiveness for my day.

I can certainly admit one thing. I am definitely not perfect.

Kevin