Well lots has happened since I last wrote. Ive obviously been dealing with a lot with my pain and anguish, and I was building myself up for my 12 hour visit with D. The part that was hardest was knowing I was going to see the W to exchange my D. Well as it turned out it went very well, me and the W actually talked for nearly an hour. By this point I had already fired my lawyer, and was shopping for a new one. We agreed to try her L, together. She said she still wanted to be my best friend, and then on 3 different occasions said that we had to get D, but could possibly/maybe/could be reconnecting after the D. I never once asked her anything about it, and actually moved away from it politely in our conversation every time she brought it up. She actually agreed to let me keep the D till 10pm instead of 8pm. It was a very pleasant conversation.
Later on that evening, my D wanted to stay the night, and called the W to see if she could(this was Saturday night) and it got pretty heated, but somehow I got on the phone with her and eased her back. I haven't been able to ease her anywhere in the last year. She let the D stay the night. The next day she let her stay again, and allowed me to drop my D at camp on my way to work on Monday morn. WOW! this was so great for me, to be with my D finally its the first time I really smiled since this all began. I texted the W and thanked her so much for being cooperative and told her what it meant to me to be with our D.
Everything was really good, then I got served with the new protective order, and it really hurt me again, I knew it was coming but for some reason it re hatched all the original feelings. My W got served to and it scared her cause this one basically told her that she couldn't give me permission to break the order in any way, which we had been a lot at this point. Now there is no protective order against my D but there is on my W. Now the W says she thinks I should only do 12 hours like the judge said, cause shes afraid she will get in trouble. Ive called around and the general consensus is that my wife can extend visitation all that she wants. She just has to follow the protective order. This is so stupid, cause technically we cant really see each other to drop off our child, or talk to each other about the child. The W says she is going to try and have her L drop the order, or at least amend it. I'm kinda getting the feeling she wont. So hopefully Ill, have more time with the D this weekend... Guess I have to patient and let it work out. Everyone around me says not to trust her. I don't know what to do. Why would she keep bringing up that we might could get together in the end? Ok, well Ill try and update this thing daily again so I don't get so long winded... keep us in your prayers ps bluerain, Ive called in all the spiritual people Ive ever had a relationship with and got all them praying overtime on this one. pss Karen thanks for the advice you always have deep insight... both of you are very appreciated
