It sounds as if it has really hit you in the face and you may feel a bit numb......or can't define your feelings at the moment. I haven't been in your shoes, so I can't truly say that I "know" how you are feeling. But, I do care and I am so sorry this is happening. I hope you will not give up posting b/c you need the support here, okay? We want to hear from you and see how things are going in your life. Things have a strange way of making big turns......so you never know what may be down the road. The important thing is to take good care of yourself and be there for your kids.
Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!