Cat, I figured you would let me know if you didn't want to share. I know that you are trying not to say "too much" for anonymity-sake so I wanted to be sensitive to that as well.
I know, the fear thing. I do hate that aspect of it and am working through it. It just takes so much time and is a process. I know I would be fine without him - am coping fine now. My head knows it but it is my heart that has a harder time.
I read your question about saying ILY on another thread and I had been thinking about that on and off recently. I haven't said it for so long (since I stopped trying to "pursue" at all) that I wonder what would happen if I threw it out there. I have finally decided that I am not ready for that yet. I WANT to when he is acting so much like himself but there is still too much other weird stuff there. He has to know how I feel - my actions/attitude show it.
I also wonder what would happen if I were to walk up to him and plant one on him. Won't do that either though.
Won't do that either though.
