I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

[beepee]

hi mac!
i honestly, to the core, do not know the true reasons why he left. he told me he couldnt handle the "extreme" living situation anymore. he couldnt stand to see me hiding in the closet when i was angry, he couldnt stand seeing me cry every single day, he couldnt stand being the only one that i talked to about my problems, he couldnt stand that he had no friends here in the states and i was the only one he had to talk to, he couldnt stand that we both didnt have much money, he couldnt stand that i wouldnt forgive him for cheating on me, he couldnt stand that i once slapped him when i got really angry (huge mistake, im not a violent person at all, so far from it and i dont know what came over me, i felt so low when i did it, i wanted to crawl into a hole and die), he couldnt stand living with my family, he couldnt stand hearing my mom criticize me everyday and not being able to say anything because she'd go mental and try to commit suicide, he couldnt handle a lot of stuff. too much. there was a lot i couldnt handle about him too but i dont want to delve into that. i dont want to focus on the negatives about him. im trying to rid my life of negativity. TRYING.

so mac, to answer your question, he left for many reasons, i think the main reason is my depression. but who knows, maybe he doesnt fancy me anymore because of all the weight ive gained, or he found someone else (im pretty sure he didnt tho).

oh and im not religious by the way so a note signed by 'God' wouldnt mean anything to me.. no offense to those who do believe! i think i will change my signature..not sure what to write..