K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

Stuck,

I am going to church because I want to. I am taking my kids because I believe it is important for them. I am not saying that I am better than my W. You are more than quick to point out ALL of my past mistakes. How can I even say that I am better than my W? My point was not that I am better than my W. My point was that I am taking a stand for something I believe in since people were saying that I was still trying to please her. I'm saying I am doing this for me and my kids, not for her. It doesn't make me better than her. Its just what I am doing. I am not going to not go just to make her happy. I set a boundary and I am sticking to it regardless of who it pleases or who it doesn't please.

I haven't given up on schooling either. I'm just trying to fix myself right now and do what I need to be doing.

I haven't moved on from my W either. I am just staying out of the way so I don't further screw things up. I very much want her back just like the rest of you want your S's back. But the more I am involved right now, the more damage I do.

Doesn't God say to come to him with your worries, fears, anxiousness, etc? He also wants you to love him and do what he says not for something in return, but because you want to please him. At the same time, God wants to help you with the problems in your life which also requires action on your part as it has been stated on this thread many times.

I grew up in church. It just wasn't the catholic church. So it is not like I just found God or something.

Stuck, what did you have for lunch?

Kevin