Do you realize why so many people have stopped posting to you? It's because you start something that you don't follow through on. Like your schooling.
"On top of that, alcohol does not have power over me anymore. It used to. It no longer does. It does not control me. I can avoid it with ease now."
It's not the alcohol that had the power over you. It was your dependency on it like a crutch. Addicts tend to go from one addiction to another. So once it wasn't alcohol, it was your W, then when she's gone it's now religion. While religion is a good thing, it is not to be used as another crutch. I'm Roman Catholic, so I know what it's like. But one minute you're talking about God, being a stander, etc. and how you're better than your W for taking the kids to church (and that's what you're doing every time you mention it). Then the next you're backsliding. Go to church because you want to. Period. You don't have to keep mentioning your W when doing so.
Do you realize that the C and the AA meetings would have helped you with that? I think we all knew you weren't going to follow through when you started criticizing the C after just the first interview. You keep switching band aids once you feel that one isn't working right.
Again, there's nothing wrong with being a stander. But do it under the right circumstances. Not because it benefits you but because it benefits your W and your family also.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
