Sometimes I wonder that if we look like we`re enjoying the limboland living too much that our H`s might begin to think we`re happy with a half marriage and begin to pull further away. Like if we`re GALing, looking great, always light hearted and smiling aren`t we being a bit unreal and dishonest too?
FallGirl, BINGO! My sentiments exactly!!
PS - I need to stop with the "chips," too. Between that and eating donuts during spin classes, the wedges may end up being flats!
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
It's quiet here w/out D18, and her gaggle of girls (and boys!).
I ran kids around, and did errands on Sat am (while H caught up on sleep), and Sat night the boys, H and I went to his partner's 40th birthday party. It was fun. His other partner/customer was there with his wife, and I haven't seen them much in years (and we used to all be very close). One hiccup (noticeable to probably only my H)... My H's partner/customer taped a Viagara to the birthday boys mirror, and told me and H about it. So, OF COURSE, I have to stick my foot in my mouth, and I say, "Ton, where the heck did you get a Viagara?" (DUMB BLONDE!) He laughs it off, and then his W proceeds to tell me about the first time they "tried one out." I just can't hear stories like that. I'm sure I went from laughing, joking around, to a ghost face, w/choking back tears eyes. However, I turned my head, and counted to ten (while they all talked), and was able to "reset."
Yesterday we spent time out on the water, wakeboarding and riding the waverunners. S12 has a "girlfriend" now, and she came over in the evening to go out with us. I surprised my H and S9 and made... RIBS! They LOVE them! They SAY they turned out pretty good, and were excited to get them, but who knows how good they really were!! I don't eat them, so I couldn't compare.
I'm heading out to walk the dog this am. S12 has football camp this week, so the house will get lively in another hour and a half.
H remains friendly, seeking me out, wanting my involvement in things... I'm having a really hard time w/this weight thing. I made a major commitment to myself yesterday, prayed hard about it, and am on Day Two of healthfulness.
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
Yeah, I sat through a bunch of girlfriends nicely talking about someone we all know who has just split up, sat there for 15 minutes thinking how it could well be me next.
Check out M25 thread, there has just been some great discussion on what to say in the next R talk in the last day. Basically NOTHING, just listen!!, if at all possible.
The weight thing is hard, mine is the result of stress from being right on the edge. Apart from that, I wrote down everything I ate for two weeks to pick up patterns. I then researched how to fix those danger zones (eg, 3pm eating, eat more protien at lunch). Once I found a formula that worked, THEN I started my weight loss program so that I knew it could be sucessful. You know, I WILL loose this weight, not I am trying to!
i like the sound of your DB name ..if only I could accomplish for myself. Head is just too full of a whole mess of slop these days ...i guess that is how I will term it.
in a real frustrated agravated, irritated, infuriated, bothered, disturbed, edgy, bitter, angered, perturbed kind of way.
Fortunately for me I got Jesus, friends in Christ, a bunch of whom I will be gathering with tonight (just at the needed time)to exchanged all things in Christ as we guys continue to stand for our M's in obedience to Him. So no workie tonight and in it's place a great refreshing, rejuvenating meeting of Godly men for dinner and fellowship/camraderie.
You gave me the incentive to start a food diary. And, I even added in (or took off the calories from) my exercising.
Yesterday, I did a 3-mile quick walk (w/3 lb weights on my ankles) w/the dog in the am, and then last night I rode my bike for about a half hour.. My calorie intake was excellent, too!
Today, I'm doing good on the calorie intake. It's raining, though, and I might not be able to get outside for exercise. Will try...
So, the eating side of things is improving, UNTIL I see my BFF and she makes this stupidly wonderfully fatteningly YUMMY DIP!!! Every stinkin' time we get together I tell her, "BFF, PLEASE don't make that DIP! I know everyone loves it, but I HAVE NO CONTROL!" And, the sh*t shows up everytime!
NO CONTROL! Especially after some wine!
GOD!
My hair looks nice today, though. LOL
-- Going to check out M25's thread...
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
Welcome to show! LOL You can vent, act like a freak, loco-ize, whatever you want in here!
I'm kind of all over... calm, WHACKED, feeling sorry for myself, determined, whimpy, BITCHY, etc...
It's all good.
The only thing not good is limboland. And, I am starting to, oh very slowly, see a clearing in the fog. Maybe by the time I get some of this weight off, and feel healthier and more confident, the H will have a cleared HEAD!
Have fun tonight!
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
