K4D Rising #4

[K4D]

I accept that the current circumstances are what they are. I accept that they may be this way for a very long time. I don't accept that there is no hope in the future. I accept that through God all things are possible and it is his will to restore marriages in his time and not mine.

I could be in for a 10 year run or longer. I hope not. But I could be. Thats why getting a life is so important so as to keep from dwelling on the current circumstances and also allow me to live as I should with what each days circumstances are.

Faith in God and a good priest IMO is about as good a route as one can choose for help. That is just my own personal opinion. But I think that people should do what works best for them. In my particular case and I hate to admit this while I have said it before... I actually do better with distance between me and my W. When I am around her, that is when it really hits me. When I have had some time to be apart from her, I do much better.

I know that I am not in control of this situation. God is. The more I try and do anything, the more I interfere. So it is best for me to stay out of it and just work on me and let the rest happen as it should with God.

I'm doing fine. I'm not perfect. I backslide sometimes. It happens. But I recognize it and I try to get out of it. Maybe not always by snapping my fingers and having it done right that second. But I do.

I'm going to dinner with a friend tonite that I met at my divorce support group which I am still going to. He is currently going through a D and is working on himself. However he is preparing to find someone else as soon as this is over for him. He wants to save his M, but doesn't see any hope. So he is just moving on and looking to the next relationship whenever that occurs. I have referred him to this website. I know he at least viewed it. Anyways, dinner tonight should be good.

Anyone having anything good for lunch today? I had a hotdog and walnuts with water.

Kevin