I don't think there's anyone on here who would argue with you getting spiritual advice/guidance. However, I think some of us are puzzled about not going back to your counselor, and dropping the AA meetings. Every addict I've known, starts to meetings, rehab, etc, and starts to justify that "I just don't belong here,(or "I'm not comfortable") because I'm not like THOSE people". And ofcourse, they are just like those people, and then you know that they're still in denial about the problem.
Alcohol may not be your addiction of the moment, you've swapped it out for the addiction of your wife. You need to find a way to control your own life, and a 12 step program is a good start.
