I want my Monkey and Sheep Back

[beepee]

thanks davidswife: i checked it out last night and it great, thanks so much for the suggestion!

journaling..
up quite early today, couldnt sleep because of stomach pains..god i really do think the ADs might be doing some damage to my stomach or something. just checked the weather report and its going to rain and thunder every single day this week and into next week so there goes my hope of making some money at the flea market this sunday!! oh well, im gonna have to find other means of getting some money. EBAY AND CRAIGSLIST!! its just so annoying because i hate taking pictures and describing it and listing it and all this cr^p, it takes so long! but i need to do it because i need to move out asap.

so im not totally sure what i am going to do today. havent really made a list. must think about that soon before i end of wallowing and obsessively checking email and snooping. dont want to do that, dont want to get heartbroken if i find something out. i wanted to apply for more jobs but i think i really need to do something that doesnt involve the computer.

well one things for sure, i need to put those ebay items up because its sure to fetch me a grand which i desperately need. i feel like i should start packing!! even tho i dont have an apartment yet, i KNOW im getting out of here by Sept 1, theres no way im not. and i love packing. gets me excited and really happy! maybe ill make a start on that, just some little stuff maybe. itll be a good excuse to actually sort through all of my sh*t that i've left in the basement.

i've started a countdown to Sept 1 when i plan on moving out and ive added NC into that countdown. if i can it make to over a month without contact with my H, id be so proud! so that's something im working on. i know i should be focusing on now, the present, but looking towards the near future helps me through today. so if it works, im going to stick to it for now. i will certainly live for the moment when i start to feel better after moving out!!

uh-oh, bad anxiety is kicking in and the wretching has started meds are needed..