Thanks Cat. Its something I haven`t done for a while myself, though I`m getting a sense of H`s pattern just from journalling here myself.
My second post on this thread will probably give you the best synopsis of what we`re dealing with.(Yes, H has valid issues about me too.) From reading trustinginfaith, you, Cat, I can see lots of similarities in what our H`s are going through.
Anyway, he`s on a downward trajectory at the moment. He`s back to wanting to shoot me. Home two hours late last night. Left two hours later for the night. Didn`t say where he`d been or was going.
And I`m airy and light. "Do you mind picking up DS from golf? If you`re watching football though I`ll do it" "Is the supermarket closed at 9" that was our full convo yesterday. I stay out of his way too though when he`s gunning for me!
In the past H has said various things about separation "I know I have to leave" "I`m not leaving you can go""My mother says we have to stay together" !! Yes, and in that order.
He cannot make a decision to save his life.He knows under our country`s laws I will get to live with the children in the family home and he would have to leave. I understand that he finds that hard to do. I feel sorry for Mr Nice Guy that truly was there before Alien took over.But most days now I think about contacting my solicitor again and getting the ball rolling.H isn`t there for the kids, he`s spending our money, he doing nothing around the house, he`s not facing up to his issues, running around like a lunatic and blaming me for everything.
And its bloody hard to live with someone who`s boring through you with sheer hatred in their eyes.
Anyway, on with today. I`m enjoying that part of the journey at least-the day to day fun with me and the kids stuff!
